Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Guilty little pleasure

I have a confession. Whenever I'm needing a bit of a pick-me-up, I go out and watch the Paul Potts Britian's Got Talent audition on YouTube. I could watch it over and over just to well up and get that tight I-can't-quite-breathe feeling in my chest. Somehow that makes other things seem better.

Another freak out night last night. I'm so tired of having these irrational fears creep up on me at night. I'm sick of having horrible nightmares. I think I've had a dream where Kate is drowning in one fashion or another probably every other night for the last few weeks. I sort of feel like I'm losing my mind. Pete seems to recall me having these kinds of anxiety dreams when I was pregnant with Kate, too, but they were about things happening to him. I just want them to stop.

In the meantime, I guess I'll keep YouTube on my favorites list.


Anonymous said...

Sweetie, invest in Paul's CD titled "One Chance". All of the songs on it are wonderful. It will help relax you, and maybe you could put the songs on an MP3 player to take along with you for when you need it.

- TJ in Texas

Unknown said...

lovely pleasure. i might have to copy you on this one when i get down and blue. it really is hard to watch it without tearing up. hell i'm tearing up as i type this (and i'm no where near preggers!)

michelle said...

i teared up as well - amazing!